Forgive me. I’m afraid
I have been too distant,
my head unwrapped
spaghetti-string unwinding
down labyrinthine curves
Forgive me. Lightning
is pulsing from my soles
to the sky and it hurts
Forgive me. I’m afraid
I have been too distant,
my head unwrapped
spaghetti-string unwinding
down labyrinthine curves
Forgive me. Lightning
is pulsing from my soles
to the sky and it hurts
things are gathering dust:
a mountain of must to sort,
slates to clean, a mean pile
of work to make this smooth
clock tick
but we have time, a garden art,
in these few hearts planting seeds
where the world’s wind will
snap no branch, let spirits
grow sky-straight
it’s not too late:
a touch of forbearance
at the end of the world
goes down cozy as coffee
and heartening as wine,
true-vine compassion
that forgives this mess
I will avoid tints of sentimental;
if there is one thing we both hate
it is someone telling us how we should
feel. I will only say thanks
for allowing me to mother you
through trial
and error.
I will not say go forth and conquer,
but I will say continue and become
in every hue even when you don’t
believe any action or non-action
is of consequence.
It is: every shadow,
every glint.
Miss Havisham, dear Ophelia, let us flee
this dark house, the cruelty of misplaced
desire, the paneling of which is suitable
only for our coffins. Let us find another wood,
a brighter home of our own choosing, lush
with fern, moss-hushed, honeysuckle glinting,
scenting the sunlight and the hill-born(e)
breeze. Let us step from the shade into glade
of pink foxglove, listen for rocks’ water-song
and silence of trees.
There is no revenge in pity,
no sympathy in surrender, so cast off your wrecked
dresses, your sodden tresses; care not about full-
filling hours. We will study butterfly wings, speech
of birds. We will deck ourselves with wild roses—
or toss them at the b(r)ook.
Everything dust but his cool words
in the diner, that just-different drawl
that marked him as from not-around-here.
A tall drink of water, hair dark beneath hat
and if his frame was rail-lean yet the sinew
was tough and railroad work demanded
muscle. He talked to you (he loved to talk),
charm reinforced by the monotonous
backdrop: bleached-dry tumbleweed
ranchland, scraggled ranks of prickly pear.
Your courting not about picture shows,
fast cars, stolen touches; only coffee
and maybe pie, sweet talk and dreams
of a lush green future, anywhere else.
Inspired by this dVerse Poets Pub prompt, writing about family history.
I’ve watched you on the beam,
all long legs and determination.
Over and over the cartwheel
launched with good vision,
feet seeking blindly the graceful
finish, perfection.
I have to tell you now,
there is no perfection
on this gravity-massive earth.
But there is always-getting-better.
I’ll tell you this as well, though
you are not the girl for metaphor—
You need these same skills
for every challenge: balance,
trust, strength in the core.
The one where you built, brick by brick
the half-walled flower bed, where we never
got around to the deck, where scorpions came
in the showers, where we set up the first crib.
The one-bedroom up a flight of dark stairs
where I wrote stories and school papers,
where we ate Hamburger Helper and the kitchen
rack slipped our wine-glasses to the floor.
The one with 1940s flooring and south view
of winter sun, where the laundry chute
opened on the basement where I worked
while my father died. The crib again, there.
The one with the teeny yard we cut with shears,
marigolds on concrete and opossums on the fence.
The one on the cul-de-sac with kids, a military circle
of playground, hospital, sleepless nights and 9/11.
The one I loved and you hated, money pit with
garden surround. Another crib, endless contractors.
Where you built, board by board, the deck,
where for 10 years we slept to rain on skylights.
This one, concrete-modern, echoing white and screenless,
where I have my very own workroom overlooking
neighbors’ lush gardens, where rain and stars are muffled
by a host of concrete houses, strangers shut within.
It is easy to forget, day by day, the places outside
of photos, the 22 years of furniture, curtains, carpet.
Where we fell into bed, fell into and away from each other,
began a new day again and again and again.
Last night, I glimpsed the full moon shining
through the balcony’s metal blinds.
You were sleeping but I wanted to tell you,
I would go with you anywhere, and still be home.